All done!! It was not bad at all, I am just cramping a little now. Luckily I brought a book to wait with so my mind would not go on overload! Now we wait 2 weeks or so to find out if it worked!!

I will have an iui tomorrow! Only downside is Jacob cannot get off for more than 20 min so will not be able to go drop off the sperm to get cleaned. So I will have to take off work a few minutes early on the last day of school...yikes! Luckily my amazing friend will take my kids since hers will have graduated by then and most will leave early. So I will leave around 3 to go to the drs office so it can be washed (just means they will remove any sperm that is not good). Then at 4 I will go in for the procedure! I am kinda nervous but really more about what will happen after. I know my hopes are already up and I was really upset that first month it didn't happen so am nervous that I will be upset again. Hopefully I won't have to worry about it at all because it will work! =)

Ok, those of you who are following and don't know what an iui is its basically artificial insemination. They will take the sperm and clean it removing dead or slow sperm and fluid. Then they will insert it directly into my uterus. They gave me the shot to induce ovulation today and sperm live 24 hours after inserted. And ovulation occurs 24-36 hours after the shot. So hopefully it will work! He said my lining is not what he wants to gave me some estradiol lotion to rub on my arms 2 times tonight and tomorrow morning. The actual procedure takes about 10 minutes from what I have read. The cleaning takes 40 or so which is why I have to be there that much earlier...Here we go!!

Good news! My eggs are still needing to grow so I will take an ovulation test tomorrow and Wed. Considering it doesn't happen regularly on its own more than likely they will be negative. Then I will get the shot to ovulate on Wednesday. Then here is the new development: He will do an iui on Thursday afternoon! I was nervous that I would have to take off work but he said Thursday will be fine which is the last day of school! I am super excited but afraid to get my hopes up...and I will admit pretty nervous. It really doesn't sound like a comfortable way to get pregnant but obviously the fun way is not working so well. Now I am going to do some extensive research! I want to know EVERY move that dr will make...especially since he is not one to explain himself real well.

Only downside seems to be swelling again. It has not been too bad until today, but looking back at pictures that were taken this weekend I can tell I was bigger than normal. I don't see it until then, but I have also always been really self concious about it to be honest. Plus not being able to do any physical activity does not feel good. But I did burn some serious calories this weekend dancing it up for Joy's wedding!! =)

Had my appt today! My eggs still need to grow this time and he wanted me in on Friday but I won't be in town. So on Monday I will go back and find out what the next step is. He said he might do an iui this time but will decide after looking at them. Luckily this means no more shots for now! I'm already feeling pretty tender and swollen today more than yesterday. I have too much going on this weekend to feel like a balloon! I'm pretty excited about the possibility of an iui! But nervous too...I'm hoping it doesn't hurt...and that we only have to try one time. Plus the Chinese calendar says I would have a girl if I got pg this month..not that it matters to me but it would be fun to have a girl that my niece could play with so close in age. Anyway now we are just "coasting" and letting things grow till Monday! And we leave tomorrow for la!!! I haven't seen my family since Christmas!

I had my appt yesterday and he told me I have one egg pretty good size so far and a few others that are possibilities! He was surprised that I didn't get pg last month since my ovaries kicked out 4 eggs but at least we get to try this month! I'm starting to swell the tiniest bit just enough to make my clothes a little tight but not too much that I cant wear them. As long as I fit in the dress for my friends wedding I will be happy.

I will go back tomorrow to get my ovulation shot. I think he wanted to do an iui this month but we are leaving for la Thursday morning so he can't do it this month. I was a little disappointed but am glad to at least know that next month we will do this if it doesn't happen this month. Plus it gives us time to budget it. We make decent money for being a teacher and soldier but still have to make sure we have it to spend of course! It's only 100 from what friends have told me to we will see! Hopefully we won't have to though! :)

I did finally get a note to give my gym so I can cancel my membership!! I haven't been able to go the past 3 months so have been wasting money on it. They will cancel it next month for me though! I'm a little sore the past few weeks so I haven't even been able to walk the dogs lately....

Injust found out I'm going to be an aunt to a little girl! My brother and his wife are having a daughter! Hopefully we won't be far behind! :) I will post tomorrow about my appt!

Here we go on a new month! Just started taking the Clomid Friday and Femara today...I will get the Gonal shots tomorrow and start those Thursday. Then my next doctors appt is Monday so we will find out our next step. My doctor still doesn't explain future plans if the "normal" way doesn't work. He keeps telling me he takes it one month at a time....well I am definitely a planned out type of person so need to know in advance! Plus when we get into procedures we have to pay higher deductables and would like to know ahead of time.
Side note- has anyone else had a problem with big bumps that look like pimples come on your face? It doesn't have a head to it so won't "pop." They are just bumps that have been there for almost 3 weeks or so. I have always had sensitive skin and some meds have broken me out but not like this....I got some deep pore cleansers so hopefully they go away!

Ok so today was the day to find out if we are pg this month...test said no... I wasn't as upset as I was last month and keep waiting for it to hit me. I was really really down last month so hope I don't get that way again. It mainly just hurts when I see a baby. This Sunday at church I seemed to be in the baby section!! They were everywhere! Or maybe I'm just noticing them more but still! I was hoping it was a false negative but the nurse said that it would not even be an early detection at this point so just to wait till I got my period. Didn't have to wait long though got it tonight...bring on another month of shots and prayers! Just no bloating...I've got a dress to fit in!!